sedate me someone

ON MY OWN by BOY KILL BOY

Feel the force of the blow
That's the price for getting down
Maybe I understand
Just because I'm doing fine
On my own
I'm better off
On my own

Feel the cold of my hands
That's the price for moving on
Taste the shame on my lips
I know, I know I'll do this
On my own
I'm satisfied
On my own

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will grow they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love

Wipe the sleep from your eyes
The last nights lullabies
Its a smack in the face
I know, I know you'll do this
In your own way

Keep the wolf from the door
Spend some time getting well
On your own
We're better off
On our own

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will go they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will go they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love



I know hurts so much but i have to keep reminding myself that it's all for the very best. Sometimes when i'm down thinking about you i'll listen to this as loud as i can to stop the memories from pushing their way in and the tears from pouring down.
You don't know how much you meant to me.
Well i guess its too late then.
.. tears will fall, years will grow they say.
the final kiss goodbye, my love.-

Reise - A Musical La Guitare Journey 2007

heyho.
La Guitare was a success thanks to the hard work of everyone from the backstage crew, to the emcee, instructors and performers.
The audience also helped out by being completing Mr Micheal's song by being so sporting and fun. Hope all those who came enjoyed themselves cuz i enjoyed myself so much.
We were asked to keep a smile on our faces while performing and then i turned to the left to see Jeremy and Mark dancing to our songs. Mr Micheal also made us laugh by sticking his tongue out. HEH the audience missed tt.

thank you everyone.
thanks for the memories.

http://picasaweb.google.com/casualtyofsociety/ReiseLaGuitare2007

see you guys at our many xmas dinners and upcoming outings!
.-su (:


relive the heartpounding moments performing for a room of more than 300 ppl. More than full house! woah~


last min practicing


smile for the camera


NYPGC [Batch 11, 12 &13]

heh and the 'Aye Aye!~' from the crowd really made my day.
thanks fai, zim and kinah for supporting me (:
thnks to the madrasah peeps [hakeem, raudhah, basirah and fazly] too for attending!

somehow someway

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions for me, yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown
Of the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

I have no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here
And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'

And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'

I know it's out there, I know it's out there
And I can feel you fallin'

I know it's out there, I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there, I know it's out there

Somehow here is gone, yeah...


-goo goo dolls

smile for the camera

Wait till I put my plastic smile on..
I have such a low tolerance for snobs nowadays. And the world is filled with them stupid ass fishes. I mean I go out of my way to be friendly and yet I get snubbed.. Ok I’m a nobody. I get it. But I’m still an individual aren’t I? Don’t I at least get a simple ‘Hi, how are you doing?’ or better answers to questions??

Just cause you know so many cool people doesn’t make you one of them. Look around.. There are people who put on their plastic faces just for you. I hope you realize it. I hope you choke change.

Now do you feel special?

Cuz i think your head's stuck in cloud nine. Wake up and smell the roses.

the last teen

Aye aye!
There's so many things i've been up to. One of which is the Lime Sonic Bang!
This time they made it at Sentosa. Wasn't such a bad response considering there were many who came over to the beach.
my escort for the day was none other than PRIMELA!
woots. our weekend. had fun disturbing u and such..

Met up with my bro and his friends.
The most memorable event happened on A Vacant Affair's set. We were waiting so impatiently for them to come up and when they finally came on... hell broke loose!
I had so much fun moshing along to the songs. Prim had a hard time trying to record the set but to no avail. She was my cushion as she stood beside the barricade and me. Whoa it was so darn thrilling. Only thing is i have to stop wearing slippers to mosh pits! Only one minute into the 1st song my slippers came off. So had to endure the stinging sand and yet even more stinging soles of shoes. HAHAH. Fark! I wish i wore shoes tt day. But it was damn worth it. We limped happily back home...



2nd Dec came round and tadaaaaah!!~
HAPPY NINETEENTH BDAE TO ME!
woots! The last of my -teen years.. Next time i'll be a -ty!
gosh gosh time pass by so fast ey.
Anyways thanks to everyone for your well wishes. Really really appreciate it!
And the bdae songs too. whoa...
Sue TAN! ahhaa

First cake i got was from Guitar Club. they made everyone stay back to sing me the bdae song. oh and great composition by Gabriel! Thanks ar dude. LOL wish i had recorded tt high pitched version.




Second surprise i got was at the reunion at ECP with the madrasah peops. It was so nice to see you guys again(: Had loads of childish fun playing UNO and joking around. Then they presented me and Hafiz with a cake! HAHA so sweet la can.



here's me with basirah. Our dear organiser!
yeah thnx gurl! i enjoyed myself tt day. Here's to more reunions(:

Third surprise was the biggest of all. I cant effing believe my eyes when i saw their beautiful faces at the ward. Heh the thing is i had to work aftnn shift on my birthday. yes right on the very day. I tried to take off but to no avail. So wth i'll just soldier on. I thot the day'll be a miserable one.. BUT!
Sayang, Zuyi and Jack made a special appearance just for me. You know the phrase 'made my day?' well that was the exact words to use. You guys totally turned my frown upside down. Thanks so very much! And to think u had to go asking where's the gastro/ endo ward? Smthg to do with stomach one. *point point. *scratch head.. LOL
LOVE YOU GUYS!
and thnx for the presents :D

Fourth surprise was before i left for work. Some staff nurses from my work area bought a cake for me!
wahaha
tt's even sweeter considering i dun know them tt well. been working for only like 2 weeks plus. heh. touched la can?


weird thing is every cake is a blueberry cake!
ahah. how'd everyone know tt's my fave?

Reservations

Omg this just made my heart beat a little faster.
http://playstoprewind.com/reservations_valentinesletter.html

I know you guys can do it!
I have so much faith in your future.
Keep rocking our hearts ey~
VIVA LA VL!

A Secret I Cannot Tell

Jay Chou - Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi Lyrics

leng ka fei li kai le bei dian
wo ren zhu de qing xu zai hen hou mian

pin ming xiang wan hui de cong qian
zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian

zui mei de bu shi xia yu tian
shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan

hui yi de hua mian
zai dang zhe qiu qianmeng kai shi bu tian

CHORUS:
ni shuo ba ai jian jian
fang xia hui zou geng yuan
you he bi qu gai bian
yi cuo guo de shi jian

ni yong ni de zhi jian
zu zhi wo shuo zai jian
xiang xiang ni zai shen bian
zai wan quan shi qu zhi qian

ni shuo ba ai jian jian
fang xia hui zou geng yuan
huo xu ming yun de qian
zhi rang wo men yu jian

zhi rang wo men xiang lian
zhe yi ji de qiu tian
piao luo hou cai fa xian
zhe xing fu de sui pian

yao wo zen me jian


TRANSLATION:
As cold coffee leaves the coaster
I desperately tried to hold my emotions far behind
Fighting hard to restore the past
On my face you can still see ever so clearly

That rainy day wasn't the most beautiful
It's the shelters tt i once shared with you in the rain
The pictures in my memory
While on the swings, dreams become less sweet

*CHORUS
You told me tt by gradually letting go i'd be able to go further
And why bother changing the times tt you've missed
You used your fingertip to
Stop me from saying goodbye
Imagining you being by my side before you disappear

You told me tt by gradually letting go i'd be able to go further
Perhaps life's destiny only allowed us to meet
and only allowed us to
Love this one season of fall
Only after the pieces drifted down tt i realized these are the pieces of happiness

How do i pick them up?



-i found the movie nice and i love this song!
Thanks to the different individuals who influenced me thruout these years.
Secondary school frens- Franz, Desrie, Ying Xian..
I remember the few times we had at Franz's house aft school when we'll play badminton at his void deck then go back up and play with his hamster and listen to Chinese songs while studying. Sigh~ I miss all you guys so.
May our paths cross again in the near future.
Love you guys.

The Most Beautiful..

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

i've realised my errors and i vow to change my paranoid ways. i'm sorry baby.
i'm always grateful for having you.
thanks for kickstarting my life (:
love you. like no other

So Long Astoria

It was the first snow of the season
I can almost see you breathing in the middle of that empty street
Sometimes I still see myself in that lonesome bedroom
Playing my guitar and singing songs of hope for a better future

Life is only as good as the memories we make
And i'm taking back what belongs to me
Polaroids of classrooms unattended
These relics of rememberence are just like shipwrecks
Only they're gone faster than the smell after it rains

Last night while everyone was sleeping
I drove through my old neighborhood
And resurrected memories from ashes
We said that we would never fit in
When we were really just like them
Does rebellion ever make a difference?

Life is only as good as the memories we make
And im taking back what belongs to me
Polaroids of classrooms unattended
These relics of remembrence are just like shipwrecks
Only they're gone faster than the smell after it rains

So long Astoria I found a map to buried treasure
And even if we come home empty handed
we'll still have our stories of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
broken bones and all the best of friendships
And when this hourglass has filtered out its final grain of sand
I raise my glass to the memories we had
This is my wish and I'm takin back i'm takin them all back

-- i know u're not a fan of the song. but i keep listening to it again and again. meaningful lyrics..--

smother me.

VL took DXO by storm

More pictures!
http://picasaweb.google.com/primela.32119/VLRockOnAtDXO
(Credits to Primela)
http://picasaweb.google.com/casualtyofsociety/DXO28thOct
(Credits to me)

VL performs at DXO on the 28th Oct.
a band those kids won't ever forget.
Visit them at http://valentines-letter.blogspot.com/
Songs at http://www.myspace.com/valentinesletter

maybe

maybe bcuz i deserve it.
maybe bcuz i brought it upon myself.
maybe bcuz i was brought up that way.
maybe bcuz i'm too immature.
maybe bcuz you're way ahead of me.
maybe bcuz i'm not cool like you.
maybe bcuz we're worlds apart.
maybe bcuz i'm not understanding enough.
maybe bcuz i can't be understanding all the time.
maybe bcuz i wanna feel like a king, for once.
maybe bcuz i hide my feelings too much.
maybe bcuz i think tt by hiding it, it will go away.
maybe bcuz those kind of things don't happen that way.
maybe bcuz it hurts too much.
that i can't breathe. i can't sleep. i can't think. ..eat or be myself anymore.
maybe bcuz u deserve it.
maybe bcuz i'm too paranoid.
maybe bcuz i just want to feel loved again.
sometimes i'll imagine if the train i'm on explodes,
if the cab i'm in crashes,
if the oncoming traffic won't stop..
would anyone care?
would you care?
maybe.
would it be too late?
maybe.

maybe i just..

..don't care.

taken.- for granted

i've read somewhere that spontaeneity just means the guy just doesn't care enough to plan. I dunno. Going to the movies and doing the same old thing just doesnt cut it anymore. Where's all the fun and excitement that i'm supposed to have? I cherish the times we had and look forward for more but..

..sometimes i just want to feel like i'm wanted. Like i'm treasured. Not taken for granted. I want to be surprised and pampered once in a while. maybe thats too much to ask?

maybe. just maybe..
i want to feel like a girlfriend.

Twin Celebration- Sayang & Mr. Pres

Yest we celebrated Sayang [Huiwen] and Kenneth's birthday. Their actual bdaes are on 13th Oct [hwen] and 14th [ken].. Since it fell on the first and second day of raya, we decided to celebrate it earlier. Yeah and cuz these two are significant figures in my life..
we ate at EatZi at SAFRA Yishun. Food are quite reasonably priced and are in big portions. Which is GOOD in my books.. hahaha.


-pic taken at the head of the table-


-grp pic! SMILE~-


-read it and weep. ahhaha-


-awww.~ LOVEtheseguys-

i'm so glad tt both of the bdae boy and girl enjoyed their celebration. nothing brings me joy more than to see them smile. guys, i'm real lucky to have both of you as my friends. i sincerely feel that both of u are like the glue tt keeps our club together. not to mention the rest who are doing their part for us to continue on. don't let those obstacles and nasty comments get in the way. what matters is the way we pick ourselves up and vow to go on. lets make LA GUITARE 2007 a success~ i believe in us.

nypgc is like my second family..
u guys never fail to make me smile :)

PICTURE links here! enjoy.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/8515278@N03/
comment comment~


-loves-

The Long Wait

hola
one more week of attachments then i'll be free.. like a BIRD eh baby?
hahha. no more restrictions [parents maybe], holidays for like 5 effing weeks. So can't wait! yeahh~

Last week i had OT [Operating Theatre] posting at SGH. Omgosh. It was super fun. A complete change of setting from the general ward. I so wanted it to be longer. Like two weeks long but NYP can't afford to put us in that area for long. Too many students.

One bad thing is the temperature. Cuz its airconditioned. Pros include being able to watch doctors performing surgeries, seeing blood spill on the floor, blades cutting skin, babies popping out of wombs.. etc. It made everything all worth. Some staff are nice to work with too.





Right now i'm in A&E. I'm loving the group of year 3 schoolmates i'm going round with. That's only one-fifth of them in the pic above. They're fun peeps to joke around with. I really miss that day at ortho OT/ minor OT with huda and jeremy. I was like the big doctor having a MAJOR op to do then they were my minions.. uh i mean slaves.. eh wait! helpers.. HAHAHA

so funn la can?

welp i'm left with two more aftnn shifts and i'm done with attachments. backt o halping mum at home dolling up the house for raya. Raya first day is at MY HOUSE! all my cousins and uncles and aunties squeezed in one house. Cats sure as hell gonna be in hiding. Under the bed? LOL

neways to all muslims out there.. HAPPY FASTING!
woots. raya here i come!!

Cake Wars

The band celebrated Sakina's bdae on Sunday, 9th September. HAPPY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY DEAR!
left one more person. who seh? hmmm.. *ponders*

I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves. Sorry eh if we took too long to find the cake. Poor Fai had an ear splitting headache tt spoilt his mood. But i'm sure it was all worth it to see the wide grin on his beloved face. Awww~


-- kina is going for the KILL


-- the models on display
[L-R] Choc Mocha, Obscenely Delightful, Banana Choc, Choc Chip Walnut, Tiramisu


-- shots of the ongoing cake war
Zim! Apa main revenge revenge ni eh?
makan your fries then you know. oops. I already did :X
HAHA eye-double-you-eye-an


-- the happy birthday girl with her pink cupcake tt was spared of the violence

I thoroughly enjoyed the cake war and the short time we spent in the mrt translating 'Walking Disaster' into Malay. Geng now u know how rabaks is my malay. Inhibisi kapers? Innocence= kejernihan? That and so much more. Kina u win hands down la sey. SALUTE SALUTE! (:
Jamming was great too. Love the place at Paradiz Centre! Soundproof beb.


Walking gay master. OMG.


-- i pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief; where i belong--

[ah mampos kau! translate that! WAHAHA]

Language.- deprived

School's out. 3 weeks attachment at AMK Thye Hua Kwan Hospital. Thank god its not so far away. Only one stop away from YCK mrt. So i can at least sleep on the bus before and after work. yayness

First day was quite okay. The staff lounge is damn big uh. Got tv, exercise bike all. But what is most important is the sofa. I still prefer the one at SGH tearoom. Kinda miss it somehow. HAHA its super comfy la. Can spend the whole day just sleeping there. Might even be more comfy than my own bed.

One bad thing abt nursing. The language barrier. Some elderlys cant speak malay or english. Then its like so hard to communicate with them. I mean hand signs can only go so far uh. It takes the fun out of talking with them and to create rapport with them..

Me: Hello auntie! *smiles* Boleh cakap Melayu tak?
Auntie: Bu hui. *shakes head*
Me: *downcast face* Ouhh.. okay *cue: awkward silence*

AHAHA
damn la sey. i've been telling xinfang tt i wanted to make like a small translation book on the diff dialects. Like the basic words used in hospital. Since year one la. Now still no go. LOL
I only know some words like 'peng--> turn'; 'kacheng ki lai---> carry ur backside up'; 'shuae ya--> blood pressure' etc and some basic mandarin. Still so much more to master. And i dun even know what dialects the words are in. Just that they're CHINESE words. heeh~

hmm and my contact lens is giving me problems. i will often get headaches after wearing them. so i carry panadols everywhere. But paracetamol is not good for my kidneys uh. Then after i take them out, i'll have like this redness around my pupils. The contact lens shop uncle, urm practitioner [more professional term] said its not good. Should let the eyes rest. Cannot wear lenses everyday. Can lead to BLINDNESS. Wah piang~
but i rely on my contacts!
die die~

-- time square can’t shine as bright as you, i swear it’s true --

Forget The Past

Sigh~
My tagboard has been tainted now. Dude, whoever you are. I have no idea why u are finding fault with me or my blog. But i have a strong suspicion you know me and my band. You're the past. I don't care abt fags like you so eff off. You got something against emos so what. Bring your displeasure elsewhere.. Who are you to me? You can't define me.

Okay now on to the blogging side..
Am having loads of fun with Des. We watched Shutter till i screamed myself hoarse. Jackass 2 was just pure laughter (the old man with dangling balls! the puke bowl! AHAHA) We used my big brother's portable DVD player. Omg. That thing is super cool uh. Graphics is good. Volume can go super loud. (shuperr!~ haha) Only problem is the battery strength. Keeps dying out on us. Needs to be plugged into a socket. Anyone know a nice, quiet place outside with a socket? FREE government power! woots~

BAYBEATS 07 was effing GREAT! Espesh Blindside, One Buck Short, Plainsunset and BQuartet. Wish we came sooner to catch AVA but was caught up in watching Shutter and the taxi line was hell. Ahh next time then. No worries baby.


Video links will be out soon i hope. Busy with exams la dey~ ahah

Oops one more thing. TADAHHH!~
i was told my hair was virgin hair cuz i have never styled it before. Nice? I keep waking up and getting paranoid that my curls will go missing. I swear. LOL first time i permed my hair ma. Can't blame me.. Everyone's reactions were priceless! Espesh my little brothers'.. "Wargh! Kak Ella nak jadi macam Harajuku girls ehk?" HAHA basket.




I think i have a love hate relationship with my hair. At times i feel that it's messy and non-managable but at times i love it to bits! When its not dry that is.. Think i have to keep my hair mosturised.. Wont regret doing this. Thanks Josh and Angela!


- curls!
Cant wait for exams to be over! YAYness. Wish me luck guys (:

aturnfortheBETTER

WHOA.
It sure has been QUITE some time since i last blogged. Sorry guys. Been really busy with my school projects and stuff. Am really lacking sleep nowadays. Right now while typing this my brain is SCREAMING for my bed. Been getting lots of feelings of light headedness recently. Cant blardy wait for Tuesday to come in which my last presentation will be OVER.
I'm left with exams in mid august only. Thank god~
Attachments? Let that wait. I'll take things in stride.


woots BAYBEATS 2007 is coming! YAYNESS.
cant wait to watch all the bands perform and to spend more time with him(:

Performance LINE UP!
3 Aug FRI
Nokia Powerhouse (Stage @ Powerhouse)
6.30- 7pm KING KONG JANE
7.30- 8pm STENTORIAN
8.30- 9pm AZMYL YUNOR (MY)
9.30- 10.15pm UTOPIUM (FRA)

Nokia Arena (Stage @ Esplanade Park)
7- 7.30pm MONOFONE
8- 8.30pm CARACAL
10- 10.45pm PLAINSUNSET

4 Aug SAT
Nokia Power House (Stage @ Powerhouse)
6- 6.30pm THE SALLYS
7- 7.30pm INTONE (OZ)
8- 8.30pm MARCH TWELVE
9- 9.30pm URBANDUB (PH)
10- 10.30pm THE CITY ON FILM (USA)

Nokia Arena (Stage @ Esplanade Park)
6.30- 7pm ALLURA
7.30- 8pm DEPUTY SIREN
8.30- 9pm TYPECAST (PH)
9.30- 10pm THE LOVE SONG (HK)
10.30- 11.15pm BLINDSIDE (SW)

Observation Deck (Singapore Art Cafe & Library @ Esplanade)
2pm- Junk's Choice: WARREN CHAN, REZA SALLEH & ADLIN ROSLI (MY)
3pm- TOOKOO (China)
4pm- THE LOVE SONG (HK)
5pm- THE CITY ON FILM (USA)

5 Aug SUN
Nokia Power House (Stage @ Powerhouse)
6- 6.30pm GIANTS MUST FALL
7- 7.30pm EVERYBODY LOVES IRENE (IND)
8- 8.30pm TOOKOO (China)
9- 9.30pm KATE OF KALE
10- 10.45pm ONE BUCK SHORT (MY)

Nokia Arena (Stage @ Esplanade Park)
6.30- 7pm BISMUTH
7.30- 8pm THE FIRE FIGHT
8.30-9pm They will kill us all (MY)
9.30- 10pm B QUARTET
10.30- 11.15pm ALOHA (USA)

Observation Deck (Singapore Art Cafe & Library @ Esplanade)
2pm- Junk's Choice: ALALINQ (MY) & KOFFKOFF
3pm- ALOHA (USA)
4pm- JON CHAN (PLAINSUNSET)
5pm- tbc

Visit http://www.baybeats.com.sg/ for details! GO (:

omg. i was so darn estatic when i found out Blindside was gonna come to play for BAYBEATS. Their music are very nice. I'll categorise Blindside and Bleed The Dream together as they have the same sound and style. Yeh but BTD songs are much much more catchy. GOSH. so how long more to wait till all the other big bands come and have a concert on our little red dot? hmm.. we've already welcomed A7X, FOB, The Cure, Black Sabbath, Gwen Stefani etc
maybe the mention of SINGAPORE in Pirates Of The Caribbean 3 might have had some effect on these bands? LOL

i can list ohsoeffingMANY bands tt i want to come here. but i'll still regret tt time when Anberlin came and i forgo[-ed] tt event. Rrrr.
Pricing doesn't have to cost an arm and a leg tho.
damn cant wait cant wait.

-- special. special. everyone is special. everyone in his or her own way --

as worlds collide.-

BEAUTIFUL LOVE by THE AFTERS

Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love
My beautiful love

Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe your love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe your love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe your love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right

My beautiful lalalala love
Lalalala love

My beautiful lalalala love
Lalalala love

My beautiful love.



babybaby *tuning

Rampage.- the night away

forget the last entry. heh
Rampage The Durian [a one year tribute to Rampage On The Airwaves] totally kept my mind off the problem at hand. Me, Fai and Zim reached Esplanade too late to watch Rika. But we were there for one mission: To watch A Vacant Affair!
Yeahness~

I bought a green AVA teeshirt for $18 and badges at $2 for 2. Supernice texture the shirt is made of. Hmm but i should have gotten the small size instead of medium. Heh.. its a ferris wheel design with a face in front of it. The words: A VACANT AFFAIR. please take your shirts. your smiles aren't working no more' adorn the front of the tee. OMG. How About Enough is my fave AVA song! What with the lyrics and guitars.. woot~



-- can you see matt on the right? *strain ur eyes baybeh~


-- for all your sins. they will come around again.

at the end of the whole thing we wanted to go approach Matt. Fai wanted to know if they were gonna sell AVA merch during BandzOut 2007. we stood infront, a bit to the right, side of the merch table debating on how to approach him. So long la sey we stood there. You go la! I go accompany you. Give you support. Come onn~ *one leg forward*
LOL. it was like that for like 10 minutes i swear.
then everyone seemed to be leaving, so i was like ahh wth! let's just go.. so we turned our heels and walk away.. heh.
you know why we cant do it? well its partly cuz i dunt have BALLS [i'm a babe ok?] but mostly cuz we were damn bloody STARSTRUCK! omg. :O

and we also did not want to appear to 'angkat bola' like what the malays like to say. Suck it to them' in English it means. HEH so mayb we'll pluck up the courage to talk during BandzOut?! Ouhh and another piece of bad news:( the A Vacant Affair EP that i preordered in HMV will only arrive next 2 weeks. AVA is coming next week..

How am i gonna get them to sign it? Rrrrr.
Maybe at their next gig i guess. I sure will approach them next time i have the album :)


-- remember the thunder



-- your smiles aren't working, no more. .. so just leave me alone.

Rant.

ok i am so unbelievably pissed right now. A warning to everyone of my readers- this is one of those posts where i just rant on abt something that is occupying my mind at the present time. In the time that i'm writing this, i might not be in a correct state of mind and i might regret what i wrote and this post might magically disappear after recuperation phase but it might not.

okay see i have this junior in guitar club. he shall not be named. Lets just call him ASH for ASsHole ok. i am so goddamn pissed right now you cant imagine how many bad words wanna spill out into my blog but i'll have to keep my image as a cute and INNOCENT girl. And i do not want to be deleted. fullstop.

HAHA my rant on my other blog got deleted and PURGED sia. LOL. Dunno why uh. maybe i used bad words or that i did not log on often. *sigh what is done is done. maybe case is resolved. maybe not..

well as u all know i am in love with the kind of music i'm listening to. so i really hate it when ppl come up and say that emo sucks or is just people crying and trying to slit of their wrists and wearing all black eyeliners and shit. For all those who know me, you know damn well i am not like this. I am only in in for the MUSIC not the CULTURE. I am even proud of what i am, of what i listen to. i dun judge a band just cuz of its genre. i know i'm bragging here but i know of many many bands both underground and mainstream. and you. what do YOU know? i asked you what emo bands do you listen to? he stated My Chemical Romance. then i said well i like screamo more actually. what screamo bands do you know? he went: Linkin Park. I laffed my ass off la. LP is nu-metal ok? you dun even know screamo and emo still wanna talk big. Go listen to your britney spears and LJ songs and sit under ur rock for all i care.

So this *insert badword here* ASH is always calling me EMO and laffing in his DAMN *badword!* annoying high pitched voice. He calls me EMO everytime i see him and laughs as if its a bad thing. Then he relates the stupid cultur-fic practices like slitting of wrists to me by asking me whether i do that. So i asnwered, Of cuz not. I think that's just stupid. you dun cut your wrists just cuz ur emo. or vice versa. Then i ASKED HIM BACK, since he was talking so much abt it as if he was the effing genius abt emo. His answer was that he was scared. HAH~ stupid ass

but tt was an old incident. what sparked this rant happened just five minutes ago. I was on the way back from Cheers to my nursing block. Then i saw him walking towards me with his guitar and a guy friend. I recognised that the friend was one of the dude that could dance real well during Jam & Hop. Being the good person that i am i acknowledged ASH. Just small talk [note tt not all seniors are friendly towards their juniors]. I asked him why was his hair like that. [ his hair was damn fcuked up la can?! like one mini explosion on his head. But i didnt ask him why it was so ugly. note: i am a good girl]. But he cut me short.

*points at me* EH! EMO! His friend took one look at me and laughed. i just walked on speechless. I didnt even care to look at him. Imagine a dark cloud above my head. Eff la! i dont even know your friend and u made fun of me in front of him. DO YOU THINK THAT I DO NOT HAVE FEELINGS?! not like you. *insert many many bad words* think before you talk ok fatty. UGH. i dont care anymore. HATE me now if u want cuz i alr HATE you..

i seriously feel like i do not need you to be someone in my life. someone not as in a friend. someone as in an individual. no one needs to know someone like you. from now onwards i will not acknowledge you in the corridors unless there is an absolute need to. you just get on my nerves wayy too much. seriously who the fcuk needs enemies when you've got friends like this. but dude, SERIOUSLY youre no friend.

k that effer just spoilt my lovely day. but he's not gonna spoil my night out to watch Rika, A Vacant Affair and West Grand Boulevard at RAMPAGE THE DURIAN! mayb i'll even mosh tonight.

let the emotions pour out.
Rrrr.

Sun Worshippers

MORNING!

its a beautiful Saturday morning. I did my house chores today. Washed clothes, vacuumed the house, hanged clothes, bathed the cats..

yeah so here are my darlings (:
all wet and grumbling.


-- stereo


-- mono


-- nekokyu jahat 300 :D

LOL right now they're hiding from me.

welps gotta go crash a birthday party with the arSCENEics!

-- the poison's in our veins. you know that i'll die for you --

Capital Letters SCARE Me

Yeah so i guess you guys have heard of the good news ey?
we made it into the FINALS of BANDZOUT 2007!! woots yeahh
damn excited la can? This means we have to really work hard to rock out on the finals. Rrrr. Nervous beb~

We'll be performing LIFE by Valentine's Letter and STAND BY ME a classic by Ben E. King that has also been covered by Metallica i think. Too bad we cant sing Love & Hate. I just love the bass 'solo' part. No really it'll always stay lodged in my head all throughout the day after jamming. Its okay then. All the best for your recording k VL? We'll always be here to support ur journey. What are NumberOneFans for eh?

so its on Friday the 13th. If i say 13th July many ppl wont remember so its FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH OKAY?! ahaha may all of you not be able to sleep tt day. Why you ask?

Bcuz A VACANT AFFAIR is coming! ARGH I. AM. SO. IN. LOVE. with this band. Ordered their EP at HMV. Its gonna come next week. YAYness. Sorry guys so many capital letters. Might have hurt your eyes but do i look like i give a DAMN? NO!!! AHAHA
i'm sleep deprived so bear with me k?
LOL bear!! SAVE THE BEARS! STOP DES FROM KICKING THEM! rawr.


-- polar bears!


-- i can just FEEL the love awww~

See? How can you even THINK of kicking such a cute little mammal?
tsk tsk tsk.

Hmm cant really think of much else to say here. Just hope to see everyone there okay? There'll be Bad Obsession and Firebrands too to perform for us. But Joe the cool drummer [we talked to him before. He's real nice(: ] wont be able to make it cuz of NS reservist [say gdbye to all that long hair. Aww. Wasted uh i didn't take photos with him tt day aft Rock For Wayne.. Damn.] So its gonna be an acoustic set for Bad Obsession i guess. Hope AVA plays a real rocking set with all the hxc dancing and screaming yea.

Just watch this video i took of AVA performing The Departure.
http://download.yousendit.com/B38225F31B970E87
-- this has become something we've never believed. slowly but surely it'll take us all away..

Enjoyed my ass off at RFW. Caracal and West Grand Boulevard were damn energetic. Its was a pleasure to watch them perform(: I like to watch the guitarist of WGB perform. heh. Ouh CARACAL managed to get into the finals of Baybeats 07. All the best!

yeah so as a tribute lets have a moment's silence for Wayne Seah of the Suns. He's a cool guy but i hate to have ppl passing on when they still have so much more of life to enjoy.. Rest in peace dude. Hope u move on to a better place~

-- remember the thunder. AMEN

Chaos via arSCENEic

destination unknown.

Band auditions was yesterday. It was nervewrecking but still very fun. Thank god the judges weren't those mean and strict kind who'll bite off our heads at every mistake. Comments they gave us were guitar was too soft; need to tune up a bit more cuz the solo couldn't be heard. OMG and Zim had to stay up to learn the solos in like two friggindays. Then they said vocals should be cleaned up abit. Bass and drums are tight but can be tighter. But the good comments they gave us were: Looove the outfit! Good stage presence. Love the dancing~! [ great job ppl! maybe we shld think abt joining the DanceFloor eh? :P]

we were packing up to leave and was abt to leave the jamming studio when one of the judges said.. 'Good job you guys. But when you get to the finals you should polish up on Stand By Me.. The blablablabla...' OMG those were the magic words. WHEN WE GET TO THE FINALS~

Wish we had recorded the judges' comments so we could contemplate what we heard and what we did not hear.. hmm but its disappointing to know that out of the eleven bands that registered there was only seven that turned up for auditions. And they are choosing six bands to play for finals.. DARN i dun wanna win by default. That's like damn pathetic sia.. ugh. Dunno if they'll change the rules or line up and stuff. We'll just wait and see. The results come out next week!!!

After all the debating on what was said and how to improve.. We headed on to Esplanade to chill and take pictures. Here are some of my fave shots! Ouh yeahh and we got high too.. On beer~ ROOT beer :p


-- a fond farewell


-- the one tt comes before AFTERmath.


-- arSCENEic atrocity.- CHAOS via POISON


-- beam me up

I'll keep you faithful readers posted on the results! (:
Ouh yeah and my ears getting better. I can finally FEEL it la. Good progress~

Surgical Paranoia

OMG yay!
I am finally online(:
Camp Guitare Photos can be found here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/8515278@N03/
Didnt take many pics uh sorry.. Any problems let me know..

Okay time to talk about ME!
Most of you guys wouldn't have known about this but i just had an ear surgery. Its a minor ear surgery to patch up the hole in my ear drum. I learnt in school that these kinda hole usually heal on their own but this particular one is kinda stubborn. Been 3 weeks still it didnt heal so a surgery was to be scheduled. I forgot the medical term something-plasty eh. HAHA paiseh~ The person who wrote it down also got some problem with the handwriting. LOL cannot read properly ar..

Anyway it was a heck of an experience! I was already lying on the surgery table awaiting the anesthetic nurse to put me to sleep. Then the mask was on my face. Had to breathe in the sleeping gas.. Skali they injected one effingpainfulashell medication into my I/V site. Sialah~ The pain spread all the way up my left arm like wildfire!
I quickly inhaled the sleeping gas as if i was deprived of oxygen and also as it was the only thing that could keep the pain away.

Had to stay overnight for one night with the bandage on my head like a wannabe Ninja Turtle. Face swollen and feeling drowsy. Ugh. Then the next day was discharged and doctor cut away the bandages. Went home straight via taxi. It was then that i got to see my stitches in all its GLORY. Like WTH?! eeeeeeeeeeeee so gory la. Purple color stitches all the way down my left ear. Now i have trouble hearing cuz its still swollen.

Eff i have trouble even to feel my ears la. So numb. I keep telling ppl i feel like Ms Potato Head like my ear is gonna drop off anytime i jump around or move too much. I'm so scared cuz now is the second day and i still cant feel my ear properly. I dunno if this is a common side effect. Mummy i need my ears~ Dun wanna go deaf :'(
So far not much pain just deafness and a bit uncomfortable. Hope i can regain it fast.. In time for BandzOut 2007.

Pray for me guys (:
Phase One is over. Now's the healing period.. Mana potions ready?!

Scene TakeOver.

wow.
I soo did enjoy my holidays! And it's not even the end of the first week of school.. I've mentioned about the gigs that have been going on during the hols. Too bad i was not able to go to Anberlin's concert and to Rock The Sub. All was not lost though cuz i finally got to meet the guys of Valentine's Letter. Had so much funn.. The guys are such jokers. Hope we get to meet soon. I want proper pictures of you guys~

Sorry about the rashes thing. Might have scared away some ppl. Didnt eat my Anti-Godzilla medication. Hurhur~
No la. Its just my skin allergy working OVERtime cuz of the atmosphere. I'm fine now. I'll live..
Went home at around twelve to one AM. Had to sleep in to be able to wake up for Camp Guitare and chalet the next day. That is why it took so damn long for me to upload the videos and pictures.. Sorry guys. Youtube is being an ASS to me too. What with the superWOLS server i own. Rrr.

Dun fret here it is. I didn't record Missing tho. And my camera has too much special effects for the pics to even look HUMAN. Bursts of color and unearthly lights everywhere!~
Stupid place couldnt even have a good lighting. Like Kai said, you guys DESERVE a better place! So make friends, enlarge your circle of contacts and secure a well-deserved place in the local music scene~


- Neon lights will never blind me.


- I spy one of the LimOngs! Nice hair~ Looks like he's holding onto the guitar's fretboard only. Someone's gonna get a whacking tonight.


- Scream Caustic


-RAZOR. my camera pwns urs!

The Long Awaited Videos:


Four Steps To Make Love Work
-- Listen carefully. You can hear girls screaming '**ck You' right at the moment you asked us too. So who said you cant trust us not to scream along eh Ramon? Best song after Love & Hate what with the bursts of energy and screaming and jumping about. LOVE IT! Highly recommended.

Love & Hate
-- Front row seats for the Number One Fan!
Loving the intro :D Some parts were a bit shaky cuz i was jumping about nyaha.
Heroes never fall!~ *wink*

Goodbye [Thanks For The Memories]

-- Sorry to all FOB fans out there! Ahaha.. You make up good stuff Ramon! Like i said, the things that come out of your mouth~ LOL jkjk

Separation Anxiety

YouSendIt.com allows only 7 days and up to 100 downloads. So stop sitting there on your goddamned asses and get it!

Looking forward for more encounters and hope to see you guys perform in a bigger venue next time. Talented bands deserve all the support they warrant..
Viva La VL!~

regards
[tho i hate to admit it..]
NumberOneFan (:

A Fond Farewell (Not)

heyho.

From here now, lets bid SORROW a sweet farewell. Why you ask?
Well, cuz the GIGSmaker is working OVERtime! Wooo~ There are so many gigs to look forward to in this june holidays. But the sad thing is that they are all so near each other.. Like WTH!
ugh.

am still estatic though 'bcuz Anberlin is coming! And so is Copeland! Woweee~

Lets put this all in to sequence:

3rd june.


Main event: Anberlin, Copeland as headliners
Local greats also performing: Vertical Rush, Marchtwelve and The Fire Fight
I love Anberlin! Their albums: Blueprints for The Black Market and Cities are all so wonderfully done. Christian rock at one of its best. Dreamy yeahh :D

Am not too familiar with Copeland but i heard they're very good too..
Let's see how this goes.

Next gig:
9th June.
Rock the Sub like i've already mentioned in my last post..


Last but not least:
10th June
Music Fest '07
featuring Valentine's Letter and other Froplay bands.
Come and support! Yeah anyone wanna go contact me. Can get tickets one dollar off for $12. It's $13 at the door.
Hope dad lets me out of the house for this one cuz i'm sure to be home late if i go to ROCK THE SUB..

Then its Camp Guitar on the next day. Will be damn pooped.. BUT! Estatic yeahh~ Hope everything goes well. Busy busy busy like i told ya (:

So goodbye SORROW. You are not welcomed here..
- shoo


SIDETRACK abit la can~
Hey GC ppl! Here's the link to our day of Spiderman 3 and delicious seafood buffet at Seoul Garden:
http://summerablaze.multiply.com/photos/album/18
[NO! how can they kill off James Franco! well i say if u disfigure him i'll rather you just kill him off.. Hrrmph! RAWR~]


-- lips that need no introduction. now who's the greater sin. your drab eyes seem to invite (tell me darling..) where do we begin? --

Clearly Conscious

Ola~

Its 1:33 in the AM and i am pooped! Had NAPFA just now and i am oh-so-not happy with my results. Only managed to scrape by with a BRONZE. Ugh my inclined pull-up was only a pathetic 6. Can't blardy believe it.. After the whole thing i felt kinda disappointed with myself but well guess i should have trained harder. My fault~ Everyone say it with me: DAMN YOU SU!
o.O

Which brings me to the next issue: BUSY BUSY BUSY!
Yes just like the song by The Fray that is playing on my WMP right now.. 'Everyone knows I'm in over my head, over my head..' But the only problem is the 'everyone' part cuz it seems like many people do not know how much work i hafta do now. Half a year and all the ICAs are piled up together. Being the subgroup leader for all 6 modules doesn't help either. That and being VP for NYPGuitarClub. Someone run me down with a sharp object.. PLEASE!
This problem was really biting into me like no one's business till i broke down one Friday. What do you take me for? A robot? Well i guess this robot has had enough..

Sayang managed to calm my sorrows and help me think straight. Thanks a lot dear. You don't know how much it means to me.. I can never say this enough. I AM SO GLAD I MET YOU!
Well the answer to this problem is that i have to prioritise my time properly. And like Jeremy said, TIME MANAGEMENT is everything~ Wish i had that skill though.. heh


Now back to the lighter side of things:
GIG ALERT!
http://youth.sg/blog/2007/05/07/rock-the-sub/
Rock The Sub @ the Substation
9th June, 2PM to 3AM

The line-up of bands:
1) My Writes
2) ETC
3) The Fire Fight
4) Super Illegals
5) Caracal
6) The Love Experiment
7) Heritage
8) Syawla Evol
9) Ugly In The Morning
10) Moods
11) Analog Girl
12) Astreal
13) The Pinholes
14) B- Quartet
15) West Grand Boulevard
16) Plain Sunset

Indie Disco line up includes:
1) Beat! DJ Set by Ginette Chittick, George Chua and Joe Ng
2) Twee Like Me by DJ Set by Fruit Records DJS
3) Sweetmusic.fm vs unpopular radio - Home Based Internet Radio Station

And so far i've only managed to watch B Quartet and Astreal perform. Big bands playing~ I want to, need to, have to, MUST GO!

solikethehundredthtime,
takemeoutmofos!

-- take another glance and remember. we're the ones. setting you up to take our fall --

SuperJunior madness(:

OMG.
Saranghaeyo~

Have officially been bitten by the Korean bug. Lately there's been a craze going round of girls watching Korean dramas and such. Particularly this one girl called Hailwa. Been crazy about Rain for godknowshowlong. She and her Full House drama. Damn i wanted to watch the I Am A Cyborg but I'm Okay or something but the movie wasn't showing by the time we got round to seeing it.. She had this clip on her blog of Xiah from DBSK imitating Rain and of Heechul dancing to Rain's song. Farnie as hell. And to think these were my first exposure, my introduction to the little part of the world known as Korea.

Sayang had already started watching Super Junior- Full House when she told me about it. So one day while supposed to be finding stuff for my ICA i decided to take a rest and hop over to Youtube.com. Typed in Super Junior and the search came out with loads of different videos. Randomly picked a show. It was Episode 6- the Taekkyon martial arts lesson [with Eng subtitles of cuz]. Something about them wearing the Taekkyon suit attracted me to the clip so i watched it. After the first puff, i was HOOKED. .-line and sinker

kuangkuangkuang~
Hailwa is damn happy to know of 2 more Korean show lovers. LOL
Yeap and now my fave Super Junior member is Kangin! yay~

-- Kangin uses his whole body to drink! Racoon that drinks water~ :D

Then comes Heechul and Kibum. DDGmen! ARGH
Everyone is so funny. But i hate it when they dun provide the English subtitles cuz it kinda cuts off the fun and funny factor cuz the language and understanding factor is missing. :p
Yeah you people need to watch SuJu before u can understand just howeffingadorable they all are.. espesh Heechul.

My current wallpaper is this:

My big brother went: Eeeeee~ See la even an emo girl can change to like Korean stuff. *commenting to lil bro and pointing at my desktop*
I fought back: Huh whatever. You and your porn.. This is MY porn so u can't say anything. HAHA~
Then his face was like OMG. Okay then... -.-" [speechless]
~Ding! Ding! Ding! Round One I double you eye an. [read: WIN!]
lol


nowadays i end up sleeping at 3 plus in the AM cuz of doing ICA stuff and watching SJ Full House at the same time. But i always end up doing the latter. Dammit~
But i don't wanna quit...
Yet.

-- you look like a something :D

DDG freshmenn~

Woah~
3 BIG events just went past in a span of just 4 days: Club Crawl 2007, Jam N Hop 2007 and our NYPGC Freshmen Orientation 2007.

Club Crawl was okay. We had 215 people signing up at our booth. Mostly are for enrichment courses but we are gonna work hard to convince them to stay with the club after the course ends. Guitar Club is funn~ Trust me! Hehe.
For Club Crawl this year we wanted to make a giant guitar. And so we DID!


- setting up


-some of us


- Love Guitar Love Me~ Sayang's handiwork..

It is approximately 2.7 times bigger than a normal guitar. Had fun making the damn thing. But it was already coming apart near the end of Day One. By Day Two it was unfixable! And so we took it down for a rest. It ended up in the bin at the end of Day Two, which was kinda slow cuz not many freshies came to the Sports Hall. Ugh should have taken more pictures of our GIANT guitar.. We could have done better with the banner though. Poster was uber cool with electric guitars all over. Thanks Syarah! I think that poster might have pulled in a number of people and made them interested. Ouh and performance-wise; Erika, Marcus and Elton did a good job by representing GC. Thanx guys!

Thanks to all of those who have helped out with the decor, set-up, promoting.. whole event actually. Yeahh~ I'mma happy with the result(:

Jam N Hop was fun! They had a live band playing. Whoa the bass, guitars and drums were nice though the singing could have been improved. Oh and Michelle won Best Dancer. You GO GIRL! haha. Finally. A new MP3 eh? I 'm sooo gonna send u my songs.. Alesana wheeeeee~
Yes and there were many DDG freshmen. Its me and Sayang's code for Drop Dead Gorgeous btw. LOL~
Damn the fact that i only have half a year in school left. I am sooo gonna miss everyone :'(
~sigh

NYPGC Orientation 2007
Yeahh~ am really happy with the results of the event. Thanks to Kenneth C for the vision he had to have the Orientation in the TFA. We had a mini concert kinda thing. Was real informal and the impromptu emcees rocked the house! Thanks so much Joe and Mark. Thanks to all who came to help out and congrats to all performers. All of u just earned one CCA point! LOL
Though it was a bit hurried with the auditions and guitar reservations.. Everyone was so pooped and busy that we weren't able to go out after the event. Last year we went ice-skating right aft Orientation. But dun fret guys we are gonna plan an outing real soon for all of us to bond together and enjoy ourself~~ I need destressing. STAT!

well gtg sleep now

-- cry tonight. my hands around your hands i won't let you die tonight --