Thursday, July 17, 2008

dance around in the rain

our beloved lead vocalist and keyboardist from Chiodos,
Craigery Owens and Bradley Bell have formed a side project called
CINEMATIC SUNRISE



Umbrella & Elephants

Dressed up from head to toe, to get by.
It seems once again, I forgot what keeps me safe and dry.
To the weepy windowpanes, that are dripping with dew...
I can hear the rain outside, falling from the sky
And you can hear the...

Pitter patter on the rooftop
You can listen to the rhythm of the raindrops
I wish that the sun would come and stay
But this is a song for rainy days

(*Leo D. quote from the movie Basketball Diaries)
" You're growing up,
and the rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree
that will someday rule the Earth, and it's good that there is rain.
It clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions,
and it clears the streets of the silent armies,
so we can dance."

Let's go dance around in the rain
Don't pay any attention to the people staring from inside
We'll leave all our cares behind
And you can hear it the...

And I know once the clouds shed their tears
I know that I'll be okay
I know that I'll be okay

Even if the rain always wins
And forces my eyes shut, to dream of
I'll still dream of brighter days~

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

mad rush

JCI- Joint Commission International..
can be such a pain in the ass.

imagine being just 2 months and 2 weeks into a new workplace.
still adjusting to the full responsibility of a staff nurse.
then auditors coming to the institution and questioning you on anything regarding the hospital's many policies or procedures.
it isnt fair to put us new staff into such stressful situations.

monday, 14th july
the very first day of their 5 day of auditing
here's how it works.
there's this group of 5 auditors (angmohs mostly) who go round the whole of SGH in search of anything to mark the hospital down
they pick up any random patient's casenotes and follow tt patient's details all the way from A&E to admission to transfer to discharge while on the way questioning any poor random nurses along the way.
Any wrong answer might cause a failure for the whole institution.
yes. THAT much of a pressure

Morning shift today was the worst ever.
Usually we sponge all the bedridden patients and bring the mobile patients to bathe in the morning shift. But due to JCI, all the bedridden patients are bathed in the night shift, and the rest are left for the AM staff to bathe.
Even thought the work was supposedly lessened, everyone was treading on a thin wire.
The feeling is like UGH. Rushing to do everthing and hoping to get stuff done before the auditors come so tt they cannot pick on any minor details.
Everything we did had to be done properly, every thing to be kept in its right place. Breakfast served at 8AM sharp. I/V meds to be served before 9AM. Patients asking why they are bathed so early in the morning. And everyone panicking when rumours float that the auditors are just in the ward upstairs and might come down at any given moment.

Many things went wrong that day.
-I/V medication (ward stock) was finished and had to be restocked- thus wasting lots of precious time and I/V schedules being put on hold.
-One of my long stay patients passed away and we lost lots of time waiting for the family to bring the patient's own clothes to the hospital (as we had to clean her up and send to the mortuary).
-No one even had the time to go for a break.

I left the ward only at 5.30pm, with a stomach full of air, growling.
A head light with fatigue and hunger.
On the verge of breaking down.
Thruout the day, there were many times when i had little scenarios playing in my head like what would happen if i suddenly fainted in the ward?

But the great thing is that i no longer have to face that kinda nervewrecking 'am-i-gonna-be-the-one-being-audited-today?'
why you ask?
cuz im working night shift till the end of JCI!
thank goodness.
I dont mind sponging patients in the early morning
just dont put me thru tt JCI anxiety rush~

moreover like i said everyone is on a short leash.
sharp tones are used. everyone's being more strict on each other.
gosh
i wish all the best for all the staff working in the morning and aftnn shift.
may we pass this JCI with flying colours.

then its time to celebrate!~
(:

Saturday, July 12, 2008

jammm

drummer

UNF

meet The Unnamed Fallen aka UNF.

its been so very long since i met up with them after our last round of CS. So i couldnt miss a chance to watch them in action! Rushed straight after work to Chinatown for their jamming session in Anaki.

Guys. I seriously enjoyed the songs! Great job on the new originals espesh Heaven!
Fuzzy you sing great la sehh. No need to be so negative ahh. I loove your voice! It matches so well to the direction of where UNF is going to.
Your hair power tak boleh angkat ah boss.

I really hope this line up will last cuz i feel tt everything is there. Just need to tighten up some parts and you guys are ready for world domination! HOHO

To: Major Wan & Linda,
many congrats on your engagement! (: Tak sabar nak rewang ni.. Yang laki-laki boleh gi cuci pinggan mangkuk pat dapur. Abih the girls boleh kasi berkat ke potong bawang ke potong kentang pun jadi ahh.. LOL

Cant wait to meet up on Tuesday!
And and and


I WANT ANOTHER CS SESSION!
STAT!


..
haha sorry abt tt..
withdrawal symptoms speaking.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

바보

im loving the dance!
once again..

BIG BANG- Fool (바보) *Pabo

this is their performance in Japan for their 2nd THE GREAT concert.
they look like they're having soo much fun!!
so cute in white
espech G-Dragon!

Here's the lyrics, translated from the Korean version of the song
Fool-
ye (love is break it) i know girl (you know my situation)
right time but i can’t (say goodbye)
girl (Our separate ways)
Saying that I love you don’t cha?

[sol gd]
Don’t go. Don’t leave me and run away.
I don’t have any confidence. Even though I fool my own two eyes.
Don’t go. Don’t leave me and run away
I’ll still wait for you like a fool.

The single rose that’s withered away. The scent of you
I still can’t yet erase willingly.
Vague memories it held and it took away
Your everything I loved.
Why do we need to go our seperate ways
You should have been honest because of that. Should have protected me because of that.
You should have held me because I only knew you, you fool…

[chorus]
I still don’t know what love is.
Why is it only go farther away from me.
Like a fool standing in front of your door
From the pain I turn, showing only my sad appearance from the back.
Not resolving those misunderstands still.
Inside them roams the yearning of you.
I miss you and just stay like this
I only want to live and breathe in your heart

I love you. I don’t love you. I love you. I don’t love you.
You’ll come back. You won’t come back. I long for you…

Don’t go. Don’t leave me and run away.
I don’t have any confidence. Even though I fool my own two eyes.
Don’t go. Don’t leave me and run away
I’ll still wait for you like a fool.

I cried all night. I called to you even though you didn’t answer.
I hide from the world. The moment you left I died.
And still there hasn’t been one thing that changed.
I just got more sick and I was the only one in pain.
(Parting) It’s disgusting (Love) It’s exhausting, you fool.

[chorus]
I still don’t know what love is.
Why is it only go farther away from me.
Like a fool standing in front of your door
From the pain I turn, showing only my sad appearance from the back.
Not resolving those misunderstands still.
Inside them roams the yearning of you.
I miss you and just stay like this
I only want to live and breathe in your heart
Even though I’m alone in solitude, inside your memories grab me.

The last leaf’s falling, don’t fall, hold on to my hand.

I threw away all the letters and pictures you gave me.
Even though it’s gone, it won’t get erased in my mind.
I spend the night being paranoid thinking you’ll get erased.
Will I ever be able to let go of this small hope.

[chorus ]
oh oh oh oh oh~ the more distant it will only get~
oh oh oh oh oh~ my sad appearance from behind~



* LOL i know the lyric looks weird; its cuz its translated.
the song's real nice. the english version is playing on my blog!
Mad About You

fiftyfifth

5th july is my beloved mum's 55th birthday.
Me and my siblings treated her to a dinner out at Secret Recipe.
IMM was wayy packed with people on a Saturday, what a bummer.

yumm
-- everyone posed with their dishes tho i'm too lazy to post everything up ;p

woots
-- the birthday girl learnt the 'kawaii' pose today! HAHA

cake shoppg
-- us taking ages to choose the cake
SR cakes are the best! CHOCOLATE BANANA anyday!!
though their meals are seriously not worth it
(**i LOVE the way my littlest brother on the far right looks here. so tall la sehhh! gosh they all grow up so fast~)

after polishing off our plates, me and my lil brother (Kelana aka Katana) excused ourselves and headed to the mall's toilets to relieve ourselves. (the place was friggin cold too!)
we headed off on a short look see around the mall and saw this small florist selling those cute 'get well soon' balloons you see in hospital florists.
we decided to prank my mum and bought this super adorable red winne the pooh balloon for her. we were laughing all the way back to SR.
and to think she didnt mind carrying it all around the place!
HAHA
we passed by those 50cents kiddy rides and guess what?

barneyy
-- she was the one who wanted to take this picture here! and with so many people walking by too
tweez
-- this i made her do huahah

walkway

we should do this more often!
HELLBOY TWO with my brothers next!

Friday, July 04, 2008

mis; taken, understood

like the plague, anger has caused me to write the post below.
and like the plague, the anger in the post has spread its black ghastly fingers all over our friendship
just so you know, all the vulgarities is for him.
not you.
and that includes the bullying part as it was the exact words tt he said to me
when we met
i was never tt angry with you
just him
it was just the feeling of hopelessness tt made me write what i felt like
and i wld know tt you wld have stopped him if you cld.
it wld suck being in your shoes at that moment.

never again.

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these girls are the love (:
<33
hahah and totally same pose OMG!
readers! what do you think of the highlights?!

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

yes. you're a riot aren't you?

times like this i wish i had an LJ so i can get my posts password activated.
but well here's where i speak my mind and you choose whether to care or not

yeaterday i came home at 1220am with a head heavy with fatigue, anger and betrayal; dried up tears on cheeks
why you ask? what happened to this happy-go-lucky always smiling girl?
something happened earlier on after a fun day out with girlfriends. two of them had to leave early. So then there were 3. one was a good girlfriend whom i've known for quite a while and another was a new acquaintance whom i've just met once a few weeks back. ouh and he's gay btw just so you know.
anyways we were happily joking around taking pictures with each other while waiting for our 9pm movie to start. so when they chilled outside (of E Hub Downtown) to smoke, we came across this super cute korean-artist looking guy who worked at NUM on level 2.

you know those times when you tell your friend tt some guy is cute and your friend chides you and try to pull you closer to get a look? Or just to maybe say hi or just get a smile back?

Yes.

From what i know, when a person bluntly refuses or firmly stands his grounds it means a definite NO doesn't it? Do you think i am going to change my fking mind if you fking chase me around the mall and catch me and fking drag me across the floor in front of so many people? Do you SERIOUSLY think so?!
Do you fking have the heart to see how NOT FUNNY it is? Do you not have a heart to see how fking embarrassing it is when there is so many people looking on to see someone being dragged across the floor screaming for you to stop?
*F! And to think i shouted back at my girlfriend to make him stop. With pleading eyes for this torture to end. For help. And to think she just looked back and laughed.

Great.

The last i felt this was when another girlfriend humiliated me for an angmoh stranger just to cover her image. Then i totally changed my tone. I've had enuf of this fking treatment. With trembling hands i pushed the elevator button open. And he was still making light of what happened. Laugh somemore ah laugh! Funny right? KNN.
Once we reached the 4th floor, i rushed straight to the ladies.. and cried.
I might have been a bit sensitive of what happened but i do not deserve this. Nobody deserves humiliation to this extent. And from a stranger no less. I don't care how much shit you've been through this past 3 years, 30 minutes, 10 seconds whatever. That was out of hand.

you have not seen me this way before right?
well guess what? i have feelings too.

..
I've heard from acquaintances when they were introed to me that i'm 'those kind of people who gets bullied alot don't i'? ohwells im sorry im too nice to people then. i'll grow up soon and learn to fking not treat ppl nicely ok?

i hope you do too. grow up i mean.
stfu.