maybe

maybe bcuz i deserve it.
maybe bcuz i brought it upon myself.
maybe bcuz i was brought up that way.
maybe bcuz i'm too immature.
maybe bcuz you're way ahead of me.
maybe bcuz i'm not cool like you.
maybe bcuz we're worlds apart.
maybe bcuz i'm not understanding enough.
maybe bcuz i can't be understanding all the time.
maybe bcuz i wanna feel like a king, for once.
maybe bcuz i hide my feelings too much.
maybe bcuz i think tt by hiding it, it will go away.
maybe bcuz those kind of things don't happen that way.
maybe bcuz it hurts too much.
that i can't breathe. i can't sleep. i can't think. ..eat or be myself anymore.
maybe bcuz u deserve it.
maybe bcuz i'm too paranoid.
maybe bcuz i just want to feel loved again.
sometimes i'll imagine if the train i'm on explodes,
if the cab i'm in crashes,
if the oncoming traffic won't stop..
would anyone care?
would you care?
maybe.
would it be too late?
maybe.

maybe i just..

..don't care.