memoirs

i've always had this habit of keeping all my old messages and old photos in my phone. cuz i like looking through it before i go to sleep or when i feel like reliving the memories.
some smses tt i'll like to share are as follows;
(its all smses tt i SENT to ppl cuz if ppl sent to me then it'll be like a breach of confidentiality? or something along that lines..)

On 5th Oct 2008 to Wu Jie Ling,
Heya jieling! I got down at my stop alr. Dun oversleep til you miss yours hor? Anyways i wish you all the best in your new environment. Be strong like the way you've always been, the way i've always seen you in my 8 months here. Thanks for all the guidance and advice. I speak for the rest of us at B2, we'll miss you and your craziness! Things won't be the same again~ But i'm sure we'll manage somehow ;p
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Jie Ling was my preceptor, the one who guided me thru my final attachment at sgh w46 before i graduated to become a full-fledged nurse. she was known by all the staff to be the tough and loudspoken one. one thing tt made ppl be wary of her is that she was really friendly with out ward sister and everyone knows tt that is one way to kiss the ass of the higher authorities. but well i try not to judge ppl that way. often she told me stories of when she was a new nurse and how she cried so many times due to not being able to cope and other such work related stress. (she's been working as a nurse for 3 years- with 3 more years to go to finish off her 6 yr bond as she's a china national). At first i was taken aback by stories of backstabbing and by her loudspoken-ness and her harsh ways of making me learn.. but i know it was only to make me a better nurse. i have slowly grown to love her laughter and her jokes. she was always the one to 'chope' to be the first one to pass report to the night duty ppl so tt she can go home earlier. heh.
but the one event tt made me see a whole different person was tt 'outing' we had during raya season to SN Mr Bahrain's open house. Others would have sniggered to know tt i went there with Jie Ling, SN Wong and some other ppl but what happened tt day made me realise how human my colleagues really are. Tt last sentence can be a bit harsh but from the looks and comments tt ppl give to them, i can tell tt they are really on the top of everyone's list. Back to the Open House, when waiting for the rest, i got to talk to JL like friends, not like colleagues abt work-related crap, but as real friends abt how she came to SG from HK and how many siblings she got and how she's still looking for someone etc. heh
the one incident tt took place was when we were crossing the overhead bridge, it was raining i think. tho the bridge was sheltered, it was undergoing upgrading and the whole floor was like full of woodchips and stuff. i had no idea why this happened but JL quickly held my hand and we half walked/ half ran across the bridge. the moment she held my hand, i cld feel a sense of light-ness in my body. and i felt a smile creeping its way to my face. its not like a lesbian thingy im sure. more like a 'wow-i-cant-believe-we're-friends!' later tt night we all had a heart-2-heart talk tt had all of us crying. well i just listened cuz i was new in 46 and was not really in all the politics of work but yea you get the gist. everyone had something to say abt the management.
most importantly, i experienced the melting of the ice queen. and i miss her so.
cuz a few weeks after tt she was transfered to another ward (neuro ICU) cuz she was interested to learn ICU Nursing and wanted a new environment.

WJL, i can never thank you enough for being my preceptor. i've learnt of the hard things in life like no matter how nice i can be, there'll always be someone out there who'll be mean and harsh back. so you cant really trust anyone. and i wish to be strong willed like you- like how you wont ever back down and stand up to something you want.
take care and i hope you do well in whatever you do.
get married soon aight?
;p

(i know she'll never get to read this. but ohwells.)

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On 30th Dec 2007 to Jason Thomas
I was damn happy to see everyone today. The rushing down to the place was worth it la. Wasnt feeling tired even a bit.. Yeah i was really missing everyone, missing VLC. To me one blood means ONE BLOOD. Even tho the feeling might not be mutual.. Which is kind of sad it you think abt it.
heh.
I like the feeling of being like a part of something. Like being wanted. Yeahh am still feeling kinda hyper. LOL. VLC hyper chinarabbit-ness~
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if i rmber correctly, it was post Full Flight performance. I missed the greatest performance cuz of working afternn shift. tt night i rushed down from work to meet with the whole of VLC who were there earlier, well just bcuz i missed them~ heh
its sad how things turned out to be now. recently VL had tt acoustic xmas set. i sat there at the corner, beside my primmy poo singing along to all their songs thinking, how i wish the rest of VLC was here to sing along and laugh together at how everyone knew the lyrics by heart and how far we've come, how we've come to know each other.
Kai who's friends of Des and Ramon and who bcame my Ubin cycling buddy and how i came to know of his best friend and his gf, Baz. who, awesomely enough is just as big a Plainsunset fan as he is. 'When the sun rises again, i'll be there with you my friend~'
Fai, Zim, Sakinah, Zul are the best band members anyone cld ask for. SIGH. the memories of performing for BandZout are cherished. LOL i rmbr tt one jamming in yishun i was jumping all thruout the song while playing bass. what fun(: and tt very same place Zim played tt spongebob-esque underwater jamaican 'Stand By Me' version.
Fuzzy, i wished i've known you so much earlier, when we were still in poly. then we cld ALL go for poly events together. heh and i love spazzing abt our korean boys with you cuz its so hard getting others who like the same thing as us..
and i heard you met a new chinese friend thru Khai right? hhahah we gotta gotta meet her and let the love groww~ Fai's been caught by it alr. LOL
Jason, gosh words cant describe how devoted a VL fan and a great awesome friend you are. I still rmbr the first time i met you when Dess introed us, on the mrt. haha. and i rmbr how you took photos of the guys at tt alleyway for their myspace photos. the best part was when you were actually intimidated by primmy who had a more powerful more professional camera with her. jason dearie, no matter what you do, we all know tt you have our best interest at heart. it doesnt matter what you did or what you did not do, we all still love you as a family. i just wish we could see more of you in the future, cs session tt time was so fun (:
'main bawah main bawah!' haha
Sean you are like the big protector in our group. though you always seem so quiet. and the only times i've seen you more open is when you're not sober. which is cool though. cuz of the words tt come out of your mouth. haha had so much fun talking to you. and tt time at primmy's party, you were KO-ed for like 3 whole hours when we were all dancing like the crazy chickens tt we are~
Micheal, GOD. you are an awesome dancer can? you're mr nice guy! i still rmbr how i screwed up my first impressions by being all snobby (i wasnt feeling too happy tt time. sorry!) but yeah tt time when we tried to shared malay idioms at the scape stairs. LOL. goreng pisang atas pinggan or something. Hilarious~
Moses its heartwarming to see a family who take care of each other and cover each other's backs in time of need. and dudeee you sure know how to mosh!! tho you still scare me with tt spiked chin stud of yours.. hahah

if everyone one was there, then it'll be a PERFECT xmas VLC set.
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On 1st Jan 2008 to Primela & Jason Thomas
What a great start of a new year.. My bus driver greeted me GOOD MORNING! Then i greeted him back. One look at me and he laughed, "Hehe. Overnight ar?"
Lol. I love friendly ppl can?
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that sms was sent at 0807hrs. the night before, me, primmy and jason spent new year's eve up all night at marina bay to countdown with the rest of singapore. i bought reise, my white horse-who-wishes-he-was-a-unicorn, prim bought optimus alex and jason was supposed to bring freddy but he was too shyy.. hahaa
primmy headed over to the powerhouse stage to watch the performances in which she saw peepshow perform and whom she came to love. i went to buy burgers from BK for us starving loons which jason stayed to guard our piece of land. the fireworks tt night wasnt as awesome as us being together to celebrate the start of the new year. thanks so much for all your help in my time of need. i miss you guys so. when will we get to have other times like this? the rest of the night we tried sleeping on benches and i laughed so hard at your jokes abt ipood tshirts and homer simpsons tho i cant for the life of me rmbr how it went.
our zoo outing was superbly fun! how freddy lured the baby monkeys to the front of the glass display, how primmy still refused to be near the butterfly enclosure and tt long time we spent admiring the monkeys with their babies while eating chips ahoy! ahahah. they were looking at us eat!
how jason kept shouting 'hottie! hottie!' in tt hindi slang to the bunch of banglas. the weirest thing was going to the zoo the day before ah meng died. tho we didnt really go and see her, it was still weird knowing tt a singapore celebrity was on her death bed while we visited her home.
we need to plan for more crazy outings!

this new year i didnt have the heart to go celebrate. first of all cuz i was working afternoon shift. secondly my dad already prohibited any plans of going out to clubs or some countdown party. thirdly, cuz i know i can never top last year's countdown celebration. singing tbs and plainsunset songs til 6am in the morning with primmy. how i miss the times~
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stronggg baby

this boy. i've been loving him wayy too much. what a video. hahaha
seung ri has always been working hard to keep me off my man GD.
crack crack crack indeed~



cant get any hotter than this.
so as GD said, 'lesh go!'

two oh oh ninee

i've been inspired by hailwa's blog entry to officially bid a fond farewell to 2008 and welcome 2009. so here goes,

2008 held lots of fond memories.
-of times spent cycling with friends and family at pulau ubin- remember when we met and fed that stray dog soggy hot dog buns? and that one time kai and his best friend tried to do the uphill zigzagging thing but failed misrably? haha
-the days spent celebrating friends' birthdays.
primmy's party at BluJaz was a bomb! and so was the chalet after that. i still laugh thinking abt it
-going to london was definately the hightlight of the year
thanks to primmy i got to have tt experience tt i feel i wont EVER get to do on my own. And watching the Futureheads LIVE? wow.
if only we could have gotten tix to the NME show. bloc party & arctic monkeys~
or enter shikari!! hahaha
- i started working as a kanusa (nurse). it has been pretty hectic and so very hard on my body (i lost weight cuz i kept starving myself T.T) and i hope i wont repeat my mistakes in the future and to learn from it so that i can be a better healthcare giver to my dear patients.
-2008 was when i started going into this whole korean phase. i never thought it would come to this but there's no turning back now and i'm having the time of my life(:
learning and loving a new language has been so much fun and i really hope i can get join some classes in 2009 if the time permits. im sorry to those who cant understand my love for this language and for the people, but its my choice. im just sad that you cant accept me for who i am.
-it was the year i learnt the ropes of the game CounterStrike and to the people who dragged me along to CS sessions. I LOVE YOU!! hahah i had so much fun la. and still having withdrawal symptoms
-to the new friends i made in 2008, to the old friends and aquaintances who stayed by me
i thank thee and i love thee so much for making my 2 decades in life worth living

2009 is just a number. its how we spend the whole 365 days that matters. so people, live life and dont be afraid to do what you love. let your passion be the one who leads the way.
happy new year (: