Monday, December 28, 2009

wipe the tears


I just had my first b2st dream like 10 minutes ago. It’s still vivid in my mind and i so had to blog this down :)


Today I went back to school to do one of my assignments and brought along Song my lappy. On the way back home for some reason i started playing all of my AJ Wipe the Tears performances. Saw his smile and his cute hand dance for the chorus part. Always made me wanna join along! Not to mention seeing Doojoon & Junhyung in it and dancing as well. So since 530pm, that song was stuck in my head.


When I reached home, my persistent headache since yesterday was getting worse so i popped a paracetamol and decided to sneak off to bed (mum wasnt aware hehe). Here's when the awesome dream started..

The start of the dream was a bit vague. A lot of running around was involved. Not for fangirling but for .. desserts? HAHA. The setting was in some kind of hotel convention room. Not many people were around and there was this big silver glittery stage in one of the corners of the room. The spotlight was on the stage but then one waitress came up to us (me and a guy whom i can’t recall) and apologized and said that that was all the dessert that was left. I came up to the table and saw two big bowls of vegetable soup. It looked kinda disgusting but before my mind could register anything else I saw Fazlyna and Atiqa running out of their hotel rooms carrying empty plates. I ran up to Atiqa and asked her for a taste of her dish and she handed me an empty plate with a tiny portion of pasta. I looked at it once and quickly gobbled it down and stuffed the plate into a bin in the wall panel. Suddenly an all too familiar song started to play..

It was AJ’s Wipe The Tears. I screamed and started running towards the crowd that had formed in front of the stage. They were actually standing quite far away but I stood alongside them as the view was quite good/ wasn’t restricted. The song was ending so i started to sing along and try to dance to it. AJ looked into the audience and I danced and jumped and sang as hard as I could to give support. I was even able to witness Doojoon & Junhyung rapping!

When AJ’s performance ended, I was the only one who was still very hyper. The boys were gathering around, resting on some red chairs in front of the stage. I could clearly see Junhyung in a lime green beanie sharing a seat with blondie YoSeob. AJ and DooJoon were talking and standing. Around them were some dancers and unknown faces. But I wasn’t interested in them! Haha.

Well like any fangirl I started screaming all their names out loud. My voice was all scratchy and stuff but i still proceeded on screaming! I didn’t know that my sickness was even present in my dreams! Lol wthh. I remember screaming for Yoseob and Jun and they both turned and smiled. Weirdly enough no one else was screaming. But all the more attention to me then!
The best part comes later...

All the boys had left the room and only JunHyung in his white tee and lime green beanie was left behind. He was sitting comfortably in the red chair reading some kind of fan letter. You know the ones A3- A4 sized made by scrapbookers? He was flipped through those, quite intently reading the details and messages. I inched my way closer without saying a word. Looked at the names of the fans and saw that all of them were malay girls! One glance I even saw my name there and I gave it a second look and gave a confused face!! (haha i dunno why this is so random. Malay fangirls laa!)

I was quietly looking around, standing quite near to JunHyung. I wanted to speak to him but didn’t know what to say. JunHyung has this bad boy image that i admire but i always find myself thinking.. If i meet him in real life, will i ever have the guts to speak to him? But the more i read about him and see pictures of them goofing off, i know that he’s softhearted too! A very hip-hop guy.. And ohsogoodlooking!! :D
I spotted this circular black cardstock of a letter white letter S with four of those tiny bells in baby blue and pink on the floor. It was there for quite some time but i was afraid to make a move. In the end I bent down to pick it up. JunHyung suddenly straightened up in his seat and started counting the fancards one by one from the one furtherest away from him. ‘One, two, three, four, five.. Hmm yeah I think that’s the one that it came out from.’ That was when I took the chance to speak up.

I asked him what the cards were for. He told me that they were fan-letters and that he liked reading them. Then he started flipping the pages and showing me the different details and designs the fans have made. I was like ‘oh wow it really is nice!’ and he said ‘yeah i know, good right? I just wanted to show you how they made it’, and he grinned happily to himself. All of this was spoken in English. So i turned to him to ask another question as to how come he can speak English so well.. But then i became too conscious of my surroundings and woke up. I didn’t bother trying to revive the dream cuz i know too darn well that it can’t come back so i went online and started blogging this! HEHE

Ahh my JunHyung dream is very precious indeed. Makes me feel even more motivated to write fanletters to my favourite rookie group! One day i will show you my scrapbooking skills JunHyung! And you better speak to me in English! HAHAH
Truthfully I haven’t read anywhere which states that Jun is proficient in English. That short AJ, DooJoon & Yoseob parts in my dream made me darn happy too. Too bad HyunSeung and Dongwoon were nowhere in sight. And come to think of it, the screaming and fangirling part was all too real!!


I will strive to hunt you down and scream your names out loud for real my beastly babies! wahaha
lovelovelove!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

a new light

seoul'd out 09 was fun!! I love watching tmax with hyperbunny leader minchul and cutiepies yoonhwa and kimjoon! Beg were also very 'fan-oriented' cuz they knew how to make the fans happy. In other words both groups shower us with loads of fan service! Hehe

dearest fti made my heart sink cuz i thot they were really enjoying their performance. No matter how many times i screamed seunghyun's name, he wld just stare spacelessly into the crowd and not smile. Tt was why my heart started getting all restless. Then i watched tt yt video on the fangirl who disrespected seunghyunnie's space. Tears started streaming again. I cant help feeling tt it was our fault. The sg fans who made him mad. Well i know some might disagree saying tt all of us are not like that. But still, one stupid girl's mistake might change our beloved's perception of the country. Tt is why i like having cute, jovial, happygolucky fans/ friends like yanti and her cute-as-hell story abt hongki speaking english to her. I hope and pray tt seunghyun wont stay mad for long. I want to see his smile again.

.. Which brings me to another story
we just got back from sending tmax and fti off at the airport. While on the bus, rushing to the airport.. Praying and hoping so hard tt the boys will still be around, my fingers started trembling. Cldnt even sms properly. Ran up to the elevator. Heart pounding like mad, trying to hold all hope, tears abt to fall. The moment the elevator rang level 2 and the glass doors slid open, an all too familiar song started playing thru my headphones. It was 'Barae'. A smile creeped its way up to my face. With the song playing i ran up to the nearest flight signboard and saw Row 1 for Asiana Airlines. Saw some ppl at the departure hall entrance so i rushed there and spoke to some primadonnas. Saw two young maybe sec 3- sec 4 girls as striked up a conversation. Then it came to the part when i started to describe what i saw at seould out. Tears welled up in my eyes, all the frustration and sadness, and the girls calmed me down by saying tt the boys were so hyper at the hotel.. I was still in a sad disturbed state since yest night..
Fastforwarding.. After fti left, i talked to the two young fans again. One of the girls said something tt made such an impact on me. I asked if they managed to fancam fti and how they felt. One of them just started saying 'they were so sweet. So united. They shouted for fti as one. Im so touched', with a faraway dreamy expression.

tt was the best thing i heard from a fangirl. A typical fangirl wld say how cute the idol was, how closeup they were, how the idol smiled, waved, maybe even glanced at them. But she, she was touched at how united the fans were chanting each of the boys' names and fti's trademark chant. I salute her.
Ive got no words to describe how i feel. Just that im glad fans like that exist. I hope all follow her example.
Its not all abt the idols, its abt the love and sense of unity tt we shld uphold. Not to mention respect!
Love & Respect.
You girls made my day :) I just wished i cld hv hugged you before i left~

Sunday, December 06, 2009

JYP thanks..

Park Jinyoung's Thanks To

[ One Day Cut ]

Our company's pride, 2AM and 2PM. Forever the company's discipline chief, Jo Kwon. The warm oldest brother, Seulong. The pillar of strength, Jaebum. Don't lose focus. True Gentleman Nichkhun. Wooyoung, who's now slowly beginning to be funny (Watch my jokes!). And our detailed boy, Junsu, who sent me a text immediately after receiving their award. Junho, who always shows the strength of effort. Changmin, who's voice I want to always listen to. Innocent and pure Chansung. Chansung, I've never seen anyone that's hated you. Animal Taecyeon. I've never seen an animal that's studied as hard as you do. Smiling Angel, Jinwoonie. I hope you never become corrupted...

CREDITS: BESTIZ(SOURCE); hazyfiasco@2ONEDAY(TRANS)

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OMG i just HAD to post this!~
all i want for xmas is
PARKJAEBEOM.