jumper

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties from all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again

I would understand
I would understand

The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light
On a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say
Put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again

I would understand
I would understand

Well, he's on the table
And he's going to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they are doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I
I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You can put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again

I would understand
I would understand
I would understand

Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend

I would understand

-- this is dedicated to a special friend.
hold on.
we don't want to lose you again..
move on.
here's to your happy ending.
xoxo

Onward, ho!

London trip might be at risk right now.
Dad's asking lots of questions.
But i'm standing steadfast in my decision.
Since this is the only thing that's keeping me sane.
The only thing that's making me look forward to the future.
Of things to come.
Of plans to make.
Of people to meet.
Of things to see.
Instead of sitting and thinking of the past.


besides, the air there might do me some good.

in the light of dim stars

Friendster Horoscope for January 21, 2008

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

The Bottom Line

Travel is a great idea -- especially travel to a foreign country. Plan your trip.

In Detail

Are you hungry for a new adventure? Of course you are! There is so much in life to discover, and today is just as good as any other day to start exploring! Travel is a great idea right now -- especially travel to a foreign country. Get online and start planning your next trip. If you don't have the time or the finances for such an elaborate expedition, then just grab some friends and check out a restaurant that serves food from a country you'd like to visit. Feed your wanderlust with food.

OMG PRIM! It is in the stars as well!~
Usually i don't check my horoscopes. But today i've got tt nagging feeling to click that link and TADAAAAH! It. Is. F.A.T.E.D!
Pray that everything goes on smoothly (:

london baby!

-- look what i borrowed!



-- zoomed out


yeahyeahh. it is in the books [*pun intended] that me and primel'(a)ove are going to go to LONDON for holidays. Since she's so lucky to have relatives residing there, accomodations are more or less settled. All we have to wait for now is the letter from SGH Human Resource. Once i find out when work starts, its all systems GO! We'll plan a whole 2 weeks of heaven amongst the red-haired gorgeousness-city. HAHAHAHA

Cant wait la sia~

So ANYONE(!) who knows if a band is touring London in the month of March and April, do let me know. It will be very much appreciated!

Too bad being in Singapore now means we're missing the Kerrang! Relentless Energy Drink tour with Madina Lake, Circa Survive, Coheed and Fightstar. They're playing London in 9 days time.. :( RAWR.

more gigs please!

chiodos anyone? ahh i do so wish so baby. Even for 89 pounds!

breathe anew

PLAYRADIOPLAY!- Dechiper Reflections From Reality

My parachute didn't open
And as the backup failed
The pixie dust prevailed
And I woke up next to you
All I wanted was to hold you

I was born in a city
However small
It held a hospital
The location where I came into being
It was all downhill from there

What do you do
When your life's a disaster
And you're moving faster
And it's getting harder to breathe

What do you say
If someone is right
But you disagree
Even if it's the truth

I was told you were depressed
By a little bird
That was severely hurt
As it did not notice my window
It just flew wherever the wind blows

As it convulsed on the pavement
It whispered 'I am hated'
Your genetic flaws
I said 'Say it all'
You can't decipher reflections from reality
But neither can I

I noticed neither can I [3x]

You are the circle
I am the square
I have the non-cut
You have the cool hair
We both take showers
For almost an hour
But only once a week or two

What do you do
When your life's a disaster
And you're moving faster
And it's getting harder to breathe
What do you say
If someone is right
But you disagree

Even if it's the truth~

-- his voice makes me smile

one blood

First things first.
A HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone. May 2008 bring much love and happiness to eveyone. Personally i've learnt to live and let live. Many lessons have been taught and experienced both painful and not. I guess all i hafta do is come out of it a better individual- its all up to me and no one else.

30th dec.
Went to Escape ThemePark with some Guitar Club members. All the fun, laffter and many screaming ourselves hoarse for a simple price of $7/-. yeahh~
We shld all plan for another outing soon k? Gonna miss everyone ever so much.
Pics can be found at http://picasaweb.google.com/casualtyofsociety/EscapeWithGC





31st dec.
went to celebrate the end of 2007 with my VLC lovelies, coughcoughoptimusahem Primela and Jays'on Sensati'on. Together with Reise the horse, and Optimus A. the hott hott bear.

-me. reise. prim. Opt A. jason vs freddy. rawr.


-here's Reise sexing it up for the cam with Mono
[btw Reise was named in honour of La Guitare 2007. Means 'Journey' in German]
ahh he's just ADORABLE can? lol. won him at Escape with Primmy.

we watched fireworks and spent the night at Esplanade.

-prim threatened to transform if we din feed her. so scary la seh~

We played cards like no one's business- yeh primmy u rock at bluff! Saw banglas nearly getting into a fight with moshing teenagers. Watched one of them dancing sexily while me and Prim laughed our ass off. Danced to Allura signalling the new year. Sharing Simpsons jokes. With me and prim singing PlainSunset and Taking Back Sunday songs till the sun came up.


- the first pic of 2008.

im chocolate fingers! - dedos de chocolat

- when the sun rises again i will be there with you my friend. and i will be there looking over your shoulders-

sedate me someone

ON MY OWN by BOY KILL BOY

Feel the force of the blow
That's the price for getting down
Maybe I understand
Just because I'm doing fine
On my own
I'm better off
On my own

Feel the cold of my hands
That's the price for moving on
Taste the shame on my lips
I know, I know I'll do this
On my own
I'm satisfied
On my own

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will grow they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love

Wipe the sleep from your eyes
The last nights lullabies
Its a smack in the face
I know, I know you'll do this
In your own way

Keep the wolf from the door
Spend some time getting well
On your own
We're better off
On our own

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will go they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love

Step aside, let the hearts decide
The final kiss goodnight, my love
tears will fall, years will go they say
The final kiss goodbye, my love



I know hurts so much but i have to keep reminding myself that it's all for the very best. Sometimes when i'm down thinking about you i'll listen to this as loud as i can to stop the memories from pushing their way in and the tears from pouring down.
You don't know how much you meant to me.
Well i guess its too late then.
.. tears will fall, years will grow they say.
the final kiss goodbye, my love.-

Reise - A Musical La Guitare Journey 2007

heyho.
La Guitare was a success thanks to the hard work of everyone from the backstage crew, to the emcee, instructors and performers.
The audience also helped out by being completing Mr Micheal's song by being so sporting and fun. Hope all those who came enjoyed themselves cuz i enjoyed myself so much.
We were asked to keep a smile on our faces while performing and then i turned to the left to see Jeremy and Mark dancing to our songs. Mr Micheal also made us laugh by sticking his tongue out. HEH the audience missed tt.

thank you everyone.
thanks for the memories.

http://picasaweb.google.com/casualtyofsociety/ReiseLaGuitare2007

see you guys at our many xmas dinners and upcoming outings!
.-su (:


relive the heartpounding moments performing for a room of more than 300 ppl. More than full house! woah~


last min practicing


smile for the camera


NYPGC [Batch 11, 12 &13]

heh and the 'Aye Aye!~' from the crowd really made my day.
thanks fai, zim and kinah for supporting me (:
thnks to the madrasah peeps [hakeem, raudhah, basirah and fazly] too for attending!

somehow someway

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions for me, yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown
Of the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

I have no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here
And I want to get free, talk to me I can feel you fallin'

And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'

I know it's out there, I know it's out there
And I can feel you fallin'

I know it's out there, I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there, I know it's out there

Somehow here is gone, yeah...


-goo goo dolls

smile for the camera

Wait till I put my plastic smile on..
I have such a low tolerance for snobs nowadays. And the world is filled with them stupid ass fishes. I mean I go out of my way to be friendly and yet I get snubbed.. Ok I’m a nobody. I get it. But I’m still an individual aren’t I? Don’t I at least get a simple ‘Hi, how are you doing?’ or better answers to questions??

Just cause you know so many cool people doesn’t make you one of them. Look around.. There are people who put on their plastic faces just for you. I hope you realize it. I hope you choke change.

Now do you feel special?

Cuz i think your head's stuck in cloud nine. Wake up and smell the roses.

the last teen

Aye aye!
There's so many things i've been up to. One of which is the Lime Sonic Bang!
This time they made it at Sentosa. Wasn't such a bad response considering there were many who came over to the beach.
my escort for the day was none other than PRIMELA!
woots. our weekend. had fun disturbing u and such..

Met up with my bro and his friends.
The most memorable event happened on A Vacant Affair's set. We were waiting so impatiently for them to come up and when they finally came on... hell broke loose!
I had so much fun moshing along to the songs. Prim had a hard time trying to record the set but to no avail. She was my cushion as she stood beside the barricade and me. Whoa it was so darn thrilling. Only thing is i have to stop wearing slippers to mosh pits! Only one minute into the 1st song my slippers came off. So had to endure the stinging sand and yet even more stinging soles of shoes. HAHAH. Fark! I wish i wore shoes tt day. But it was damn worth it. We limped happily back home...



2nd Dec came round and tadaaaaah!!~
HAPPY NINETEENTH BDAE TO ME!
woots! The last of my -teen years.. Next time i'll be a -ty!
gosh gosh time pass by so fast ey.
Anyways thanks to everyone for your well wishes. Really really appreciate it!
And the bdae songs too. whoa...
Sue TAN! ahhaa

First cake i got was from Guitar Club. they made everyone stay back to sing me the bdae song. oh and great composition by Gabriel! Thanks ar dude. LOL wish i had recorded tt high pitched version.




Second surprise i got was at the reunion at ECP with the madrasah peops. It was so nice to see you guys again(: Had loads of childish fun playing UNO and joking around. Then they presented me and Hafiz with a cake! HAHA so sweet la can.



here's me with basirah. Our dear organiser!
yeah thnx gurl! i enjoyed myself tt day. Here's to more reunions(:

Third surprise was the biggest of all. I cant effing believe my eyes when i saw their beautiful faces at the ward. Heh the thing is i had to work aftnn shift on my birthday. yes right on the very day. I tried to take off but to no avail. So wth i'll just soldier on. I thot the day'll be a miserable one.. BUT!
Sayang, Zuyi and Jack made a special appearance just for me. You know the phrase 'made my day?' well that was the exact words to use. You guys totally turned my frown upside down. Thanks so very much! And to think u had to go asking where's the gastro/ endo ward? Smthg to do with stomach one. *point point. *scratch head.. LOL
LOVE YOU GUYS!
and thnx for the presents :D

Fourth surprise was before i left for work. Some staff nurses from my work area bought a cake for me!
wahaha
tt's even sweeter considering i dun know them tt well. been working for only like 2 weeks plus. heh. touched la can?


weird thing is every cake is a blueberry cake!
ahah. how'd everyone know tt's my fave?

Reservations

Omg this just made my heart beat a little faster.
http://playstoprewind.com/reservations_valentinesletter.html

I know you guys can do it!
I have so much faith in your future.
Keep rocking our hearts ey~
VIVA LA VL!

A Secret I Cannot Tell

Jay Chou - Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi Lyrics

leng ka fei li kai le bei dian
wo ren zhu de qing xu zai hen hou mian

pin ming xiang wan hui de cong qian
zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian

zui mei de bu shi xia yu tian
shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan

hui yi de hua mian
zai dang zhe qiu qianmeng kai shi bu tian

CHORUS:
ni shuo ba ai jian jian
fang xia hui zou geng yuan
you he bi qu gai bian
yi cuo guo de shi jian

ni yong ni de zhi jian
zu zhi wo shuo zai jian
xiang xiang ni zai shen bian
zai wan quan shi qu zhi qian

ni shuo ba ai jian jian
fang xia hui zou geng yuan
huo xu ming yun de qian
zhi rang wo men yu jian

zhi rang wo men xiang lian
zhe yi ji de qiu tian
piao luo hou cai fa xian
zhe xing fu de sui pian

yao wo zen me jian


TRANSLATION:
As cold coffee leaves the coaster
I desperately tried to hold my emotions far behind
Fighting hard to restore the past
On my face you can still see ever so clearly

That rainy day wasn't the most beautiful
It's the shelters tt i once shared with you in the rain
The pictures in my memory
While on the swings, dreams become less sweet

*CHORUS
You told me tt by gradually letting go i'd be able to go further
And why bother changing the times tt you've missed
You used your fingertip to
Stop me from saying goodbye
Imagining you being by my side before you disappear

You told me tt by gradually letting go i'd be able to go further
Perhaps life's destiny only allowed us to meet
and only allowed us to
Love this one season of fall
Only after the pieces drifted down tt i realized these are the pieces of happiness

How do i pick them up?



-i found the movie nice and i love this song!
Thanks to the different individuals who influenced me thruout these years.
Secondary school frens- Franz, Desrie, Ying Xian..
I remember the few times we had at Franz's house aft school when we'll play badminton at his void deck then go back up and play with his hamster and listen to Chinese songs while studying. Sigh~ I miss all you guys so.
May our paths cross again in the near future.
Love you guys.

The Most Beautiful..

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

i've realised my errors and i vow to change my paranoid ways. i'm sorry baby.
i'm always grateful for having you.
thanks for kickstarting my life (:
love you. like no other

So Long Astoria

It was the first snow of the season
I can almost see you breathing in the middle of that empty street
Sometimes I still see myself in that lonesome bedroom
Playing my guitar and singing songs of hope for a better future

Life is only as good as the memories we make
And i'm taking back what belongs to me
Polaroids of classrooms unattended
These relics of rememberence are just like shipwrecks
Only they're gone faster than the smell after it rains

Last night while everyone was sleeping
I drove through my old neighborhood
And resurrected memories from ashes
We said that we would never fit in
When we were really just like them
Does rebellion ever make a difference?

Life is only as good as the memories we make
And im taking back what belongs to me
Polaroids of classrooms unattended
These relics of remembrence are just like shipwrecks
Only they're gone faster than the smell after it rains

So long Astoria I found a map to buried treasure
And even if we come home empty handed
we'll still have our stories of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
broken bones and all the best of friendships
And when this hourglass has filtered out its final grain of sand
I raise my glass to the memories we had
This is my wish and I'm takin back i'm takin them all back

-- i know u're not a fan of the song. but i keep listening to it again and again. meaningful lyrics..--

smother me.

VL took DXO by storm

More pictures!
http://picasaweb.google.com/primela.32119/VLRockOnAtDXO
(Credits to Primela)
http://picasaweb.google.com/casualtyofsociety/DXO28thOct
(Credits to me)

VL performs at DXO on the 28th Oct.
a band those kids won't ever forget.
Visit them at http://valentines-letter.blogspot.com/
Songs at http://www.myspace.com/valentinesletter

maybe

maybe bcuz i deserve it.
maybe bcuz i brought it upon myself.
maybe bcuz i was brought up that way.
maybe bcuz i'm too immature.
maybe bcuz you're way ahead of me.
maybe bcuz i'm not cool like you.
maybe bcuz we're worlds apart.
maybe bcuz i'm not understanding enough.
maybe bcuz i can't be understanding all the time.
maybe bcuz i wanna feel like a king, for once.
maybe bcuz i hide my feelings too much.
maybe bcuz i think tt by hiding it, it will go away.
maybe bcuz those kind of things don't happen that way.
maybe bcuz it hurts too much.
that i can't breathe. i can't sleep. i can't think. ..eat or be myself anymore.
maybe bcuz u deserve it.
maybe bcuz i'm too paranoid.
maybe bcuz i just want to feel loved again.
sometimes i'll imagine if the train i'm on explodes,
if the cab i'm in crashes,
if the oncoming traffic won't stop..
would anyone care?
would you care?
maybe.
would it be too late?
maybe.

maybe i just..

..don't care.

taken.- for granted

i've read somewhere that spontaeneity just means the guy just doesn't care enough to plan. I dunno. Going to the movies and doing the same old thing just doesnt cut it anymore. Where's all the fun and excitement that i'm supposed to have? I cherish the times we had and look forward for more but..

..sometimes i just want to feel like i'm wanted. Like i'm treasured. Not taken for granted. I want to be surprised and pampered once in a while. maybe thats too much to ask?

maybe. just maybe..
i want to feel like a girlfriend.

Twin Celebration- Sayang & Mr. Pres

Yest we celebrated Sayang [Huiwen] and Kenneth's birthday. Their actual bdaes are on 13th Oct [hwen] and 14th [ken].. Since it fell on the first and second day of raya, we decided to celebrate it earlier. Yeah and cuz these two are significant figures in my life..
we ate at EatZi at SAFRA Yishun. Food are quite reasonably priced and are in big portions. Which is GOOD in my books.. hahaha.


-pic taken at the head of the table-


-grp pic! SMILE~-


-read it and weep. ahhaha-


-awww.~ LOVEtheseguys-

i'm so glad tt both of the bdae boy and girl enjoyed their celebration. nothing brings me joy more than to see them smile. guys, i'm real lucky to have both of you as my friends. i sincerely feel that both of u are like the glue tt keeps our club together. not to mention the rest who are doing their part for us to continue on. don't let those obstacles and nasty comments get in the way. what matters is the way we pick ourselves up and vow to go on. lets make LA GUITARE 2007 a success~ i believe in us.

nypgc is like my second family..
u guys never fail to make me smile :)

PICTURE links here! enjoy.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/8515278@N03/
comment comment~


-loves-

The Long Wait

hola
one more week of attachments then i'll be free.. like a BIRD eh baby?
hahha. no more restrictions [parents maybe], holidays for like 5 effing weeks. So can't wait! yeahh~

Last week i had OT [Operating Theatre] posting at SGH. Omgosh. It was super fun. A complete change of setting from the general ward. I so wanted it to be longer. Like two weeks long but NYP can't afford to put us in that area for long. Too many students.

One bad thing is the temperature. Cuz its airconditioned. Pros include being able to watch doctors performing surgeries, seeing blood spill on the floor, blades cutting skin, babies popping out of wombs.. etc. It made everything all worth. Some staff are nice to work with too.





Right now i'm in A&E. I'm loving the group of year 3 schoolmates i'm going round with. That's only one-fifth of them in the pic above. They're fun peeps to joke around with. I really miss that day at ortho OT/ minor OT with huda and jeremy. I was like the big doctor having a MAJOR op to do then they were my minions.. uh i mean slaves.. eh wait! helpers.. HAHAHA

so funn la can?

welp i'm left with two more aftnn shifts and i'm done with attachments. backt o halping mum at home dolling up the house for raya. Raya first day is at MY HOUSE! all my cousins and uncles and aunties squeezed in one house. Cats sure as hell gonna be in hiding. Under the bed? LOL

neways to all muslims out there.. HAPPY FASTING!
woots. raya here i come!!